30 Day Challenge: Day 10

Day 10: Discuss your first love and first kiss.

30 Day Challenge: Day 09

Day 09: How you hope your future will be like?

Like a Snoop Dogg music video. I'd like to have the chick(s), the cars, the good life.

In all seriousness, I hope I'd be financially successful, have a loving wife, have a nice car, have a nice house, kids maybe.

But hey, that's what I'd hope it'll be like. But life really loves giving out lemons. And I'm perfectly fine with the future not turning out the way I'd like it to be. I've been bracing myself for the shit to hit the ceiling all my life.

30 Day Challenge: Day 08

Day 08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

This very moment? I don't know really. In a way, I'm never really satisfied with the way things are. If you know me, I can always come up with something to criticize, or I can always find something wrong with everything. So yeah, there will always be something in life that I would be able to think of that I would like to change or improve, if that sentence makes any sense. Forgive me it's time to sleep.

However I am content with the way things are. Pretty much living in the moment now, enjoying things as they come and go. I also can find assurance in God, which is a huge plus. So yeah. Every moment seems like the most satisfying moment in life.

That and when you've been holding in your pee for like hours and you can finally pee? That is a damn satisfying feeling. lol.

30 Day Challege: Day 07

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Day 07: Your zodiac sign and if it fits your personality.

3 letters: WTF. Personally I don't believe in zodiacs. It would mean that people who are born during a certain time period all have the same characteristics and features. That just doesn't make sense to me.

And I can't say no judgment on those who believe in this because I really believe this is utter bull, and I am aware that some of my friends do believe in this. I still love y'all. It's just that this just doesn't make sense to me.

30 Days Challenge: Day 04

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Day 04: Your views on religion

That's a very broad question isn't it? I have A LOT of views when it comes to religion, especially my own. But let's talk general stuff.

Me, being a Christian, think the my religion is the only way to go. lol. It's a very closed minded POV, but that's just how I see it. I personally don't agree with those people who say all religions are the same. I do agree that most of the major religions encourage proper and moral living, and are beneficial to society. The general principles and building blocks are the same. If you take the major religions are compare them side by side, you'd find that there are many similarities, many identical elements.

However I still think Christianity is a little different. I'd prefer not you say it here. If you want to know, just ask me personally.

30 Days Challenge: Day 05

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Day 05: A time you've thought of ending your life.

I've never really felt depressed or emo to the point where I'd kill myself. However I've:

1. When up high looking down, I imagine what it'll be like if I were to jump. How fast I'd fall, how hard I'd hit the floor.
2. When I hold a knife, I wonder what it'd feel like if I cut myself, or stab myself. I wonder if it would hurt, how much blood will spurt out.

Otherwise, I generally don't think about suicide.

30 Day Challege: Day 03

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Day 03: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

First off, I'd like to state it off the bat that I have never smoked and never done drugs though I openly wished that I had at least have given weed a try while I was still in uni. I do however drink the occasional drink. I enjoy beer, especially Stella Artois, and I enjoy moscato, especially Brown Brothers Moscato. I think wine goes well with food, and I think tequila is really fun. Vodka's okay, love rum because of mojitos. I plan to take up scotch, cause it's stuck up poncy rich people alcohol.

Now my views on drugs first. Drugs, I've been led to believe, are bad for you. When I say drugs, I assume we're not talking about the products that are being produced by big pharmaceutical companies like Pfizer and the like. Drugs like marijuana, ecstasy, cocaine, those seem to be bad lifestyle choices that have severe effects on health, career and relationships. So drugs for me are a no go. Even cigarettes, I won't smoke em cause they're bad for your health and while it's cool and I sincerely think that they are very good social tools, they're not for me.

Alcohol, apparently is carcinogenic and bad for health too. Associated with various liver and kidney diseases, I've been trying to cut down on my consumption. I can't really drink that much anymore. Not that I could ever drink a lot.

So drugs and alcohol, generally bad. But no judgment on those who chose to consume such products. We're all entitled to choose what we want to do with our lives and money.

30 Days Challenge: Day 02

Day 02: Where would you like to be in 10 years?

10 years is quite a long time. It is a little over 45% of my current life. It's like I have to increase my net worth, or add 45% more value to my self. That's quite a lot to think about.

I could try to add value to myself in terms of financial standing. A good job, preferably in a nice bank, an Investment Bank, doing equity research maybe? I don't know. In terms of career, I've just started working, so it all depends on what I find to be my strengths. I'm still getting to know myself. It could be in the assets I have. If I had a choice, I'd like to have a Imprezza, or maybe a Golf GTI by the time I'm 32. Wishful thinking. I'd also like to have owned some property by then. Hmmm.

Or I could try to add value to myself by being a family guy? In 10 years, I'd like to have found the right girl, settled down or maybe be at a stage where I'm prepared to settle down, start a family maybe. But hey, I'm already 22 and I've never been in a relationship. So looks like I already have a bad start.( some might say I don't even have one)

So we've discussed about love and romance and come to the conclusion that my aspirations are anything but close to reality. So what have I got to hope for?

I can only put faith and hope in this: to grow closer and closer to God throughout these 10 years. Corny as it may be, I personally feel that there's nothing more assuring than God's love. I might not have the money, the cars, the woma(e)n, but I have the assurance that God has a plan for me, not for my own insignificant aspirations and dreams, but for His will and purposes.

Sides, I don't know what's gonna happen in these coming 10 years. God knows, I don't. So come whatever may.

Preachy lol.

30 Day Challenge: Day 01

Was asked by my dear friend Eileen to do this, but put it off as I was a little preoccupied. But I have the time now, so how about I give it a go, so that this blog doesn't seem so dead.

Day 1: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Single life, in a word, is easy. There's a bit of air in every step I take, a slight skip. Things are easier this way, without the need to care as much.

Of course, if the right girl were to show up, then I'd work towards that. But right now, I'm enjoying life as it is.

Leaving church, Mono's Silent Flight, Sleeping Dawn played on the radio. I pictured a scene, in the frame there's the man behind the wheel, and it's fixed on him from the perspective of someone looking standing in front of the car as he's driving on. The frames of this scene are a bit accelerated, like someone's fast forwarding a tape, but not that fast. He's crying as he drives. In the end, he dies. I can't decide between either him crashing or driving into the sea.

I must say, I've been feeling very restless and frustrated of late. Aggression and sorrow is being pent up. I get more agitated and have the tendency to curse under my breath as I am constantly reminded day after day the reality of it all. I really wanted to beat someone up today, and in church to boot. God help me (or him, if I do suddenly snap and go Hulk on the douche.)

I'm aware that this post probably doesn't benefit me in anyway, and probably will lead the people around me to not think of me as well as I'd hope they would.

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