What came in the mail today?
Eww the photo came up a bit too yellow.

It's 5am. Whee. But what am I doing, being awake at such at an ungodly hour? As much as I'd like to get some sleep, I've got an assignment due. Didn't think I'd take this long. Shows doing work last minute ain't worth it.

But if I've got work, why am I blogging? I guess I shouldn't be doing this now, but I need the break.

Anyway...

Headbanging to stay awake. Man, the eyes can't keep open.

Hmmm what should I blog about this time?

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Let's talk about confessions.

Be it admission of wrongdoing or avowal of faith or announcement of one's feeling, in all these situations, confession is something you'd think of as admonition. OK maybe not when you do commit a serious crime with severe consequences, but otherwise I would think so. When you've made the confession, you'd have to bear with the judgment that falls upon you.

Imagine if someone were to tell you one of their deep dark secrets. Everytime she kisses her boyfriend, she imagine she's kissing Zac Efron. Every night he cries himself to sleep because he's not really over her. Stuff like this, stuff that you can read on PostSecret, stuff that could be more or less serious. Whatever it is, when you reveal something intimate about yourself, you're making yourself vulnerable to the listener, you're entrusting you and your emotions to this person. They could keep it between the both of you, which would be the ideal situation, or their impression of you could change for better or for worse, or they could tell other people and therefore people might start judging you and you've just realised that you've lost what little of a good reputation you had.

Now if you're a rational thinking person, would you want to put you in a position whereby someone has leverage over you, knowing all your secrets and being able to tell the other people, especially those who you'd especially hate if they were to know.

So you, being a person of sound mind, thinks that it's better to live as an island, live an impersonal life, a life where you don't need to connect with other people. You justify the absence of commitment and relationships in your life. After all, what do you stand to gain?

But we all know relationships are more than that. And given that you do know that it's more than that, I shall not bore you by saying what relationships are like and why they're important.

I thing to note though, is how sharing what you feel or confession of some intimate secret, can be really selfish in nature. Imagine you sharing something to a person who would be better off not knowing? And given that you've given told them something, they might feel obligated to give something back. You cheeky devil, trying to get her to share something with you by forcing a secret of yours on her. It shouldn't be that way...

Anyway I shall stop. It's now 12 Noon.

Christians can be the most self righteous, pretentious, judgmental people on the face of this planet. It's as if that becoming a Christian gives us the right to judge people, sneer when they err and screw up, forgetting that we ourselves are sinners to begin with.

I remember talking to this person once, and she said that since she became a Christian she no longer had sin. Now I guess in a sense, that's true. The Bible tells us that when we accept Jesus, our sins are forgiven. But there was something about the way the lady said that. It could be possible that it was due to the language barrier, or maybe the way Koreans talk, I don't know, but it seemed to me like there was a hint of pride in her tone, like since becoming a Christian, she became better than everyone else. Becoming a Christian doesn't mean you're perfect. In fact we're still the same people, only that we recognize that we need a savior, that we can't live our lives by our own strengths alone.

Arghh in the end I'm ranting. I shall end on this note though: We are saved by grace, and not by our deeds.