Head on Pillow = Not Happening...

It's 6.45am according to my laptop and I just finished my Stat2001 Assignment. Not a wink of sleep. Can't go to sleep now cause i have a tutorial at 10.00am and I'm worried I won't be able to wake up by 12.00 noon to hand in the assignment...

Feelings? Good cause I finally didn't sleep for once! What an experience. I'm also relieved that I've finally finished the bloody assignment. I would like to thank Milo and cheap Aldi Chewing Gum for making it possible for me to stay awake. I would also like to thank my friends for allowing me to look at their solutions so that I finally have a bloody idea as to how to answer the questions.

Maybe now I should prepare for my tutorial. LIKE HELL NO.... I'll go treat me self to a nice Starbucks Ice Blended Caramel drink thingy... Maybe?

Wonder how long I'll last....

I stole school property...

I still haven't returned it yet... Opps! Memento from SMKSU!

Floriade 2007

I finally went to the Floriade on Friday. Felt kinda weird, going with my roommates. 4 guys going to see flowers, I wonder what other people thought of us. Anyways here are some pics...

Chee Cheong Fun

I don't know how to word this feeling that I have, but I'll try. I'm smelling this sweet smell. Smells like sweet sauce. Reminds me of Chee Cheong Fun from ss14. I still remember how it felt to be eating Chee Cheong Fun by the drain. It's such a wonderful feeling, and in the cold morning too. I used to eat Chee Cheong Fun at this particular old mans stall. The old man would park his motorbike/stall beside the road at ss14 and if memory serves me right he always parked in front of that small market which does not exist anymore.On Saturday mornings or Sunday mornings after tennis lessons, I would frequent that old mans store. There was something different about eating at his stall. Was it the stainless steel plates which were kinda old that added to the charm, or was it something in the sauce or his fishballs and foo chuk? I guess I'll never know, cause he's dead. I don't particularly remember myself feeling sad or even a hint or dissatisfaction at that time. But now when I think about it, I have never enjoyed Chee Cheong Fun like his ever again. This taste that I feel so familiar in my mouth right now thinking about Chee Cheong Fun has never been tasted by me again. How agonising...

Which leads me to a important conclusion: Do not take for granted everything in your life, down to all the little things.

I think we can all say that we take all the small things in life for granted. The way the evening sun hits the leaves of a tree, or how the jasmines let out their aroma in the cold night, sometimes I wonder do people actually take notice of all these things? I liked how school looked during 5-7pm. There was a certain charm to how the sun was warm and it was time to go home. I miss the feeling of going to pasar malam and being able to eat that Peanut Kuih thingy that that young dude makes or the feeling of going back home with a Pokemon VCD to watch. I never noticed how these things made me feel until now. But alas I'm in Australia and it's time to grow up. The only thing I can do now is make more memories and find more things that I can cherish, so when I reach a ripe old age, I can truly say that I enjoyed life.

Is there a small thing in your life that you appreciate?

Lifes a bitch most of the time

Claymore rocks!~

Guilty Sky- Riyu Kosaka
You gotta love all that celtic music.

Holidays finally over and it's time to get back to studying. How I dread this next few months and I just can't wait for it all to end. Then I'd be able to leave all this burden and heavy yoke that's on my back here in Australia and escape to Malaysia for some temporary release and rest. I don't know why but Malaysia to me is like solace, where I can just run away from all the responsibilities of growing up and studying and God-forbid, working... I need to find a job so I can spend when I go back. And you cannot imagine how desperate I am to go back right now. I feel so alone here sometimes, not having as many friends here as I have in Malaysia. But then again I'm pretty lucky to have my family here and I guess you can't have it all... Well I guess I could have friends here too, but for me I just find it harder to make friends.

Well I guess it's times up for this bitch-fest. So I'll stop PMS-ing and get some shut-eye. Maybe when I wake up, I'll grow a set of balls...

Just another dissatisfied custo... I mean citizen.

There has been a lot of commotion about a certain video by this dude Namewee called 'Negarakuku'. There is a lot of flaming going on between the malays and the chinese. The malays keep chanting the infamous "you tak suka you keluar" line while the chinese keep complaining about being marginalized and being mistreated. To the chinese: Well wake up bitches, life isn't fair... To the Malays: you are aware that Malaysia isn't Malaysia without the chinese and indians right? To Namewee: your MV very ho liao, and it takes a lot of guts to make those type of comments, but why you so stupid to comment about other people religion?

With all the rage going on about that song, I have a reason to rant now no?

Problems with Malaysia:

1. Sigh if the Malays keep treating Chinese as outsiders and not Malaysians, then of course Chinese people aren't that patriotic. And with Chinese not being patriotic, of course Chinese won't work in the government. When we see other people, we see them by their race, and we don't see them as Malaysians... Like that, obviously we don't have unity in Malaysia. And the Chinese cannot be found without fault too. We Chinese tend to keep to ourselves also. It's bloody human nature... However I'm not saying that we should be like Indonesia, even taking away our chinese names, just to help unify the people and shit. Hell NO!
2. Don't you feel Malays aren't competitive enough? What I feel is that Malays are being a little pampered, not needing to climb or to do anything for themselves. They really are princes and princesses, after all they are "bumiPUTERA" mar... And if Malays aren't competitive, how can Malaysia be competitive? After all they are the majority race... Once we run out of oil, what else can we offer? Palm oil? That's probably what we would have left. Malaysia doesn't have much to give in terms of service right? The only thing we'd probably have to offer is cheap labour... Probably a reversal of roles with the Indonesians... Which would pretty sad...
3. I wonder if the Malays are aware that if all the Chinese who could leave Malaysia would do so, what would happen to the country? Think about it, the Chinese who can leave are most probably the people who have money and resources. When the Chinese leave, I think the money will leave as well. Investors will leave as well. Well not instantly, but when the oil runs out. And the Chinese would probably leave, seeing as how they aren't treated as Malaysians. If the country has nothing to offer them, or even treat them as actual citizens, why would they want to give back anything.
4. The Chinese are always complaining about not getting enough attention by the Goverment, especially when it comes to school funding. We Chinese have to donate to the schools to help continue the expansion of the school and other school spendings. Well that is true, but we have to be aware that Chinese are a minority. Of course we won't be the top of the government's priority. Plus we are totally capable of supporting ourselves, aren't we?
5. Malaysian Public Universities, why do we need kulitfication to enrol? Whether we are Malay, Chinese or Indian or whatever race, we are still Malaysian right? Why would another person be given a place over another person simply because they are bumiputera? All men are created equal said Abraham Lincoln. By supporting and enforcing racial discrimination, we would be the same as the slave traders, the KKK and we'd be even supporting the Apartheid system and and Indian Caste System, wouldn't we? People should be recognized for their merits and achievements, not for their race or DNA structure.

Honestly the list can go on forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and... You get the point. There are still so many things we can talk about that wrong with Malaysia. I just can't stand how we can be so racist and insult and judge another person when we cannot be found without fault ourselves.

Sigh. In the end, I'm just ranting. LALALA~

I am not a qualified economist, neither am I a distinguished philosopher or a world class leader. What I am is a concerned Chinese Malaysian hoping for a brighter future for Malaysia. And if you bo song with what I say, then you can come to Australia and find me and kick my ass. I'll be waiting. =.=" Hehe copying Yong Yong's style. Sorry!

1リットルの涙

How many times have we given up? Isn't it sad we find it so easy to say it's hopeless? Be it pursues in life or love, when faced with a obstacle, all we do is complain and lose sight of our goals, wallowing in self pity and despair...

But there's are people who aren't like everyone else. One of them was Kitou Aya. Despite being told that there was no cure for her disease and slowly she'd lose function of her body, in the end she still lived a life that was full of hope and joy. President Roosevelt contracted polio and yet he still ran and was elected as the President of the United States of America and served his country. There are many other great individuals who were brought down by problems in life and yet they were still able to get back up on their two feet, well not literally, but they were still able to live a meaningful and inspiring life, and I can't help but think, if they can do it, why can't we?

Humans are actually known to be an versatile species, being able to quickly adapt to the changes in the environment it is in. Yet in reality, humans probably are the weakest species emotionally (probably due to the fact that humans are the only species with emotions). Our emotions and feelings influence our lives in many ways, too many for some of us. If we were to stay positive and happy, we'd be able to live life to the fullest. But if we were to look around us and see only misery and hopelessness, how then would we be able to have a positive outlook in life? I'm not sure if I'd be one who has the right to tell you about it, but this probably is the whole idea behind the Oprah Book of the Month, "The Secret".

To be honest, I'm still not sure what I'm typing about. I just am trying to express my thoughts and emotions after watching 1 Litre of Tears, but I'm probably not doing such a great job. I really enjoyed that show and was extremely touched, to the extent where I even cried, which is something I'm not very comfortable with... But after watching that show, I'm determined to live life like there's no tomorrow, to live day by day without regret. I guess it's something that is easier said than done, but I really hope that I can live like that. Without despair, without regret, without remorse, without 绝望.

1 Litre of Tears is a really great series. I'm not too sure about the accuracy about the dorama compared to the actual events. But regardless, highly recommended! Hmmm I should get my hands on the actual diary too!

Is it me or is she cute? Lolz ;p

Sorry but I feel this post is a little short. Sigh...

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A Taste Of The Shit I Think Up After Some Yoghurt...

*Parental Advisory. Explicit Content.
Click me not unless you want to read.*Bad Fruit.
He had a rotten banana but you just didn't care
You sucked his tiny dick like Chupa Chups on the stairs
I don't know why I liked you when you look just like a mare
All I know is a whore like you should be mauled by a bear
........................................................

Inspired by the ever random and crude Bloodhound Gang who
wrote songs like "Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo", "I Wish I
Was Queer So I Could Get Chicks", "Diarrhea Runs In The
Family" and also The Presidents Of United States Of America
who wrote songs like "Peaches", "Naked and Famous" and whose
song "Peaches was parodied by Bill Nye The Science Guy and has
been stuck in my head since Form 1 maybe?

My mom would kill me if she sees this.
Currently waiting for my book deal from Dr. Seuss. Waiting...
Hope God doesn't smite me... Maybe I shouldn't come up with shit
like this...

2nd semester here we come.

Let's see how I feel. Holidays would be officially over in a few hours. My hair sucks after that $15 haircut. No disrespect to Auntie Ivy, but I look like a girl from Lick Hung. Damn, this semester doesn't seem like it's gonna be a good one.

Now looking back at the last 6 months, there are so many things that I would want to do differently this semester. Honestly, I have to say the last semester wasn't really fulfilling. If I were to talk about it I'd probably sound like a total loser but not that it matters. So I won't. Besides, what's the use of looking back. Instead, I'd look into the future, plan what to do this semester. And what better way than to make a to-do list.

To-do list:
1. To actually study. Man I really need to get HDs.
2. To attend church.
3. To get to know more people.
4. To get an L license.
5. To go for a concert.
6. To not get my hair cut.

Seriously, what the chances I get this list done? Lolz

I suka...

Malaysian Politics. YAY...
Seriously this is pathetic, not to mention very racist and sensitive. Don't watch if you think you'll feel offended. But be aware that this is REALITY.
This is old stuff though...

Petition for the Beetle.

Bumblebee's a Cameo? WTF? I want the Beetle.

Here's your survey Macquarie...

Macquarie sent me a letter asking why I didn't accept their offer. Man do they handle rejection well... Sorry you weren't what we're looking for. Why? Because you're offering me a place in a second class university when I can go to the highest ranked university in Australia at a discounted price? Only a fool would take up our offer mate...

Well FINE. I guess Macquarie is pretty decent. And it's in Sydney. Everybody would like to study in Sydney right? I don't think Australian National University can beat that. But being ranked 16th by the Times Higher Education Supplement has got to count for something right?

Well whatever... In the end I accepted ANU's offer and I think I made a good decision. 30% discount baby... Okay, it's not a discount. It's just the HECS fee... Lalala~

With magic pens and that dumb Macquarie letter lying around, I thought I don't waste paper. After all, why doodle on a nice clean white sheet of A4 when you can doodle on a unwanted envelope. Besides, it would have ended up in the yellow bin anyway... And I like doodling... >.<

Front

Back

Did i ever mention that I like to mess around with Photoshop too? Too bad the only thing I can really do is mess around with it. Fancy doing some nice vector work though... If only I could.



Moral of this story? Don't waste paper. And don't do drugs and alcohol and cigarettes children. They'll ruin your life. And don't go to Macquarie University.

Now how am I gonna return them their survey form...?
PS: Clearly I've got nothing to blog about. After all, I didn't go to Ipoh and face Balanar...

R.I.P. IBM AC Adapter

God killed my adapter. He smite it with His Almighty Power. He unleashed His Wrath on the matter which is the source of my computer's power. With a poof, my adapter died. Why do you fellow chinese factory workers do such a dodgy job? You have left me without a laptop when my exams finish in 2 days? Why? Remaining battery: 27%

L.I.S.T.E.N. 0002

Our Truth by Lacuna Coil. Just another cool song. Check out the band.
Other songs by Lacuna Coil worth checking out:
1. Swamped
2. Heaven's a Lie

The lyrics are sometimes contradictory to my believes but I just enjoy the music. The vocals have some charm to it in my opinion. And the guitars are just awesome.

I actually heard this song like ages ago but thought I just post anyway...

Love Hate. Hate Love.

Love Hate
Hate Love

To love hate is to hate but isn't that love?
To hate love is to hate but can there be love?

You are Love
I am Hate
Two Opposites
Never to be
Our coming together is hate and hate alone.
Hate alone
Me alone
Forever alone, a one sided love story
Or is it a one sided hate?
For when there is me, there will be no you
And where there is you, there must not be me.
I cannot be with you, for it will only result in hate.
A litre of tears.
A litre best shed by one not two.
So let me shed the tears.
Hate alone to shed.
The tears drown the ache
The ache of my lie
A lie to myself
Telling me of my hate for you
When what exist is only love

I hate you
My favourite lie
I hate you
What a bittersweet lie

The lie is like this rose
My lips bleed
Holding it between the lips
Aroma, anesthetize me
From the pain of loneliness
Without Love.

Please forgive me but I had too much time to spare and I had this idea of love hate relationship stuck in my head for like aeons... So please forgive me for this failed expression of emotions... Jo think this would make an awesome idea for a song, but then again Papa Roach has LoveHateTragedy album already...

L.I.S.T.E.N. 0001

Have you ever heard a song that makes you go "wow..." I don't know about you but I like that feeling and to commemorate these times in my life, let's start a new section I like to call: L.I.S.T.E.N. (Let It Sound To End Noise)

ELLEGARDEN - Space Sonic


I heard this song like a few days ago. When I first heard Space Sonic, I was like " I gotta learn to play this!" Heard of the band ELLEGARDEN? Neither have I...
I think I need to think of a new title...

Nasi Lemak ala Jo...

I take pride in my culinary skills. Didn't think it would have turned out right, but thank god it taste great. Doesn't look like much though ;p Jo-ness!

Dong's Farewell Dinner

Went for a farewell dinner for a friend. Food was great! Had Malaysian food at Franky's Kitchen and later went for a drink at Milk and Honey!

Part of the menu from Franky's Kitchen! Waa......! Makes you want to open your own M'sian Restaurant eh?
This was a really great Hot Chocolate from Milk and Honey.

Duncan Hills Coffee

Do you folks like coffee?
This is how coffee jingles should be.
Coffee should be enjoyed raw, black, METAL! No SUGAR!